Things I’ve Realized in the Past Three Days

• I don’t want to live in New Jersey anymore. Or New York.
• I really enjoy spending time by myself, and living with other people makes me feel cramped and suffocated.
• It’s okay that I don’t have the talents I desire. It’s okay.
• The reason I feel a tightness in my chest and an ache in my bones and an unbearable loneliness all of the time is because I’m not making anything. I don’t have the time to paint or draw or cut. At first it went by unnoticed. It was a slow burn that has now amassed to an impossible feeling I can’t shake.